Quarter century old!

Dont get me started on new year resolutions; i always have one, indeed i'm really good in dreaming and planning one out but completely fail in implementing it. sigh. i cant even remember what my resolutions were for 2010. this year is going to be extra special for a lot of reasons (i'm saying that full of faith for good things to come, amen!) also, i finally feel its time to grow 'old'. in a good mature way. its no joke, i drive to work in the morning thinking wow i'm going to be 25 this year! its scary ~ whoever can identify that owh u know wht i mean!


this year i would like to keep things sweet and simple - not too ambitious, not too hectic, not too monotonous either - somewhat well balanced. i've been going through a lot emotionally lately; it really took a toll out of me and its affecting my thoughts and plans this year to want to quiet down more often and let God restore my soul a little bit more than usual. with that said, i'd like to concentrate more on chillaxing, lounging type of activity. i was thinking of structuring my plans into big buckets for easier implementation...but i'm really sleepy now and i still wanna make sure i post this up tonight so its just going to be in point forms. even better for the eyes! 


1. Learn how to pluck & shape eyebrows
Yes! I frequent Bangsar's RM8-10 eyebrow threading; but driving all the way there and searching for parking is a sore. Close friends would know i've mentioned this many many times about wanting to learn how to shape em so now is the time. this is the year to pick up the skill and perfect them!


2. Read, read, read!
this is a sad true story; but i'm so ashamed of myself - i've read less that 5 books for 2010! i'm pretty sure thats the figure! nuff said. even the english is getting worse. 


3. Finish using all beauty products
This is an ongoing issue since land before time. a beauty junkie since young (who/where did i pick it up from is a mystery cause mum wasn't much herself). 2010 was not too bad, i was more controlled (sort of!) then again i would love to improve greatly in this area - to have high consumption rate of all my beauty products. currently, items that i've ever finish using are my facewash and mascaras. like seriously. well apart from the usual shampoos, conditioners, body scrubs etc. i love trying out new products...but when it doesn't work i hoard them. should be giving them away. how i wish i could have my own little circle of friends who are as crazy as i am abt beauty junks - then we'll just share/swap around beauty products! save cost and environment!!! 


4. Blog more often
Yeah...a revamp soonish? =)


5. Buy classic, lasting stuff instead of just 'trendy' stuff.
I am a sucker for all kinds of trends. i see mags too much, visit people.com/instyle.com too often - i get influenced too easily.i always end up buying stuff i hardly wear; buying just for the sake of having such trend at hand. by the time i actually finally wear em, its out of trend. padan muka! this i got to work a little bit more, in understanding what clothes fit me...colour...material...to build a proper style/look that works for me regardless of current trend. i will allow myself to buy trendy stuff only if they're on sale! i will be ready to invest in better quality items, yes - i am still very cheap, stingy, budget hunter - but buy wisely according to need & durability.


6. cook at home more often
dietician wannabe...should be cooking own meals!


7. take more pictures
looking at my nieces and nephews recently reminded me again of how fast time flies. cant rewind time but thank God for memories, so i must take more pictures and if possible videos too!


8. bible reading plan
i've signed up for a one-year bible reading plan. =)


9. spend wisely, save money, tithe faithfully


10. moisturise face and body religiously
hehe. yes, not so discipline in this area yet!


okay, thats about it. simple it is. thanks for reading and pls stay tune for more ramblings! God bless. xx

busy. but lazy.

its always like that right? say, you were attending a one week camp. towards the end of the camp thats when you make good friends and have so much fun; towards the end of the camp. next thing you know its over already. like as if...good things happen only towards the end of something. the other thing is when you're busy then you're really, really busy. everything seem to happen at the same time. when you're free and bored and utterly useless then there's nothing to do.

i'll be moving again. i feel so bad cause i troubled a lot of people moving from PJ to Kajang here and then within 5 months i'll be moving out again. nomadic! and its tiring...i have so much stuff! arrrgghh its frustrating that i have so much stuff but i cant seem to part with any. all got use one...

so its spring cleaning again- the wardrobe, the books...giving away lots of stuff and selling some textbooks too. will post the titles soon =)

birthday celebration kinda extended over the weekend and i had a great time with my bro & sis law. i did massive shopping it freaked me out! wayyy to much...and its not even the sales season yet! scary. scary.scary...

its gonna be a busy week packing...and meeting up friends...before flying back to miri next tuesday 2nd dec. will be back in miri for a month- till 3rd jan. will be back in KL for work which is starting on the 5th. yes, i got offered a job...and i'm taking it! so whats going to happen to studying? hmmm...on hold at the moment. permanently or not; not sure. we'll see how this job goes. honestly quite tired of studying; the exams especially. we'll see how... i am both nervous and excited at the same time. dont know what to expect out of this job. definitely looking forward tho.

mind's a mess too; all euphoric and lazy and slumber. trying to take one day at a time. struggling to keep my eyes fixed and focused on Jesus. trying to clear feelings and emotions and memories and setting them at right places. where they should be. can we do that? set our feelings and emotions at right places?
i'll try.

thanks a million!

weeee!!! i had loads of fun yesterday. well actually the whole week was great! thanks everyone for the well wishes really sweet of everyone. streams of smses and calls and facebook texts and visits thanks a lot everyone!

i had the customary birthday cake blow + cut ritual in the noon time somewhere at 2pm thanks to flora, lantong, amanda, danny, sam & jimmy. watched heroes, some grammy awards 08 on you tube then head out for dinner with jun, flora and amanda. should have called the rest so sorry was quite blur! anyways it was fun this girly outing! lots of laughter, checking out make-ups and clothes and bags and shoes. so girl! i had a great time thanks you all! had satay for dinner too and i think it was my 1st time eating duck satay. not bad reli, not bad at all. went to Shakers for supper too; another customary thing of fellow hentian kajang-ians. thanks mei fung, ying see, hoc mun, charis and adris =))) more laughters!

ahhh...i dont have pictures of whatever happened the whole day... but i do have pictures of damages done to my bank account! still pretty okay...but i've just been spending too much the whole week! so blessed! haha!

first of all...it was jun's sister's birthday on the 19th and she wanted to get her some make-up stuff...so we went to Watsons (Your personal store!). there's something evil about watsons...once you enter; thou will never ever ever come out empty handed. anyone and everyone who goes in!!!

so we saw this really nice markwins make up palette buy one free one RM12.90 for 12 colours eye shadow. cheap and okay lar; make-up for fun! then theres this another bigger make up palette with 19 e.s plus 2 blushers and 4 lip colour. thats 19.90. now being the occasional bimbo i had to say i assumed that was also on the same promotion of buy 1 free one. clearly stated there no promotion actually but my brain was not reading. so jun took them to the cashier; she punched 39.80...and the other is not free...so i paid...and accidentally got a set too. just for fun!


then we hang around jusco...i like jusco...thats where the auntie in me is unleashed kau-kau. u can find nice descent stuff there really. they have cheap leggings like RM10 only; and i got one to wear to sleep. hehe, yes, i wear leggings to sleep. i prefer em to loose boxers; its either leggings or boy shorts or box short. tighter than boxers haha. they also had a lingerie promotion with mountains and trays of colourful lingerie. it was a pretty site but i got kinda dizzy walking around there looking left and right. was looking for seamless undies and thankfully they had nice ones. but not nice colours tho. no nude ones. visible panty line (VPL) is the one biggest mistake any woman can make! dont have to wear thongs or G's...just get those seamless type will do!!!

then we made our way to the other shops...vincci...seed...padini...see see see...touch touch touch...try try try...comment comment comment...the other girls bought some...i left without purchasing anything...which is normal unless they're on sales...and i was told sales will start 28th Nov!!! so hurrayyy to throwing out more moneyyy...

last but not least we went into thefaceshop and body shop. hmmm i just realised that their position next to each other is so ngam; after the face shop is the body shop.

face shop has nice nail polish...other than that i never tried any other stuff. body shop always has nice stuff...so we went in and look see touch smell feel again. i got myself bath gloves. nice christmas colour!

i've been using body shop's bath gloves for years and i just love it. i use this every other day alternating it with the normal ball like one...


i prefer those gloves to body scrubs; feels cleaner hehe. body shop's lasts longer too compared to others that i've tried.

thank God there wasn't anywhere else to go otherwise more cash will spill out...so we went to shakers. i had a great time with you all! thank you so much from the bottom of my heart and i really appreciate your time spent with me! God bless u always!!!

6 November

started Heroes marathon at 10pm last night. havent got a single wink of sleep. went jogging for an hour at the stadium in uni. 3.2 km. not all running of course. so called power walking and some jog.i like track jogging. easy to know how much you ran.and the weather this morning was beautiful. got em vitamin D too! then some guavas, a papaya, french bean and onion leaves. there's a proper name for that cant remember at this moment. onion leaves with some preserved black mushroom and eggs make a good omelette. then watched one episode of Heroes. did laundry. the sun is good. i like my clothes to have that sun-drying-effect smell. gonna take a short nap and later meet em kids. yeay! have a nice day everyone!!!

on and on on the beat goes...

and so i go to bed at 12. or maybe slightly earlier. and the most frustrating thing is i'll wake up again!!! at 3 in the morning!!! its FRUSTRATING (maybe i'm suppose to wake up to pray? hmm.) i cant go back to sleep after that...till like 9am then i'll almost be sleeping the whole afternoon. thats how bad this sleeping disorder is! it is frustrating!!! i tried jogging in the morning only to come back and shower and then sleep. tried drinking milk. nope. doesn't work. was thinking that working at night might help but no...still the same.

so at times like this what do i do?

ironing, wash dishes, laundry, boil water, download songs & read everything on people.com and instyle.com. or read a book. or paint nails.and facebook browsing.and read blogs.

i'm almost useless.

anyway got this card and gift coupons from Jusco with a personality bookmark of November babies which says that they are...

brilliant
have great ideas
always cautious
sharp thinker
inquisitive
reserved
brave & charitable
patient
even tempered
self-motivated

all sounds so good. hopefully its all true too!

i think i got bitten by an insect. on my right eyelids! so its swollen now.

Professional makeup artist Jillian Dempsey aka Mrs Patrick Dempsey of Greys Anatomy,has announced a collaboration with Avon. they had Cynthia Rowley previously but i didnt get to try any of that collection. lets see how good is the mascara & eyeshadow from Jillian Dempsey-Avon collection.

Madonna may not be the one celebrity that amazes me personality wise that is but i'd give thumbs up for her music. definitely. current fav from her new album is the beat goes on. go listen!

rain...rain...rain....

when was the last downpour?
its hot and stuffy and sticky now...
i had to sleep with my door open otherwise too stuffy.
please stop global warming!

of eating sleeping laughing & the geek in me

tired

and i actually miss being this tired.

thanks to always being tired before and now bumming like crazy, i miss being tired.

*sigh*

goodnight =)

cute things kids ask

19 - 15 = 4
9 - 5 = 4

a girl had that question in her homework and then she came up to me and asked:

why is both the answer 4? how can that be?

blank. wanna laugh. blank.

how to answer?

knew exactly what she meant.

one has big numbers. the other has small numbers.

hmm. so i asked:

how much is 6-4?

2.

okay, then how much is 4-2?

2.

its the same like that...

ooh. then she walks away.

did she actually get what i mean? did you?

should have given bigger contrast hoh.

kids. so cute.

to science or not to science?

i dont know.

Max Lucado in Cure for the common life :

"Use your uniqueness (what you do)
to make a big deal out of God (why you do it)
everyday of your life (where you do it)

At the convergence of all three, you'll find the cure for the common life:

your sweet spot.

God grants us an uncommon life to the degree we surrender our common one

When you're full of yourself, God can't fill you

Jesus said no to good things so he could say yes to the right thing"

For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything
1 John 3:20

so...

like...how good can that be...having ikea and tesco right next to each other...such brilliant idea

sometimes i think...

...i should be some CEO's wife...

instead of the CEO myself.

you know what i mean?

this is not funny

i can't sleep. the milk is not working. the milo too. my day is night and night is day. 'tis frustrating.i need to sleep NORMAL.

happy raya!

Selamat Hari Raya to all my friends!
Safe Journey & Great Family Time & Maaf Zahir Batin

am blessed to have a lot of friends who celebrate Raya- way back to primary school SRK Lutong...SMK St Joseph...Matriks in Labuan and in UKM...have a great Raya you all!!!

and dear friends thanks for leaving comments! these are replies...

• Jasmin: hey! yes i did try the sambal with bilis (pusu!) and tempe...i couldn't believe it actually came out alright. eatable that is! do share some new recipes!

• Meng Yee: hey thanks for dropping by! haha the lipstick is from Avon btw and i bought a matching nail polish too!

the colour is just so so pretty!

am leaving kajang to celebrate the 2 days off with my bro and sis law at their place in tropicana. therapy again! why do i call that therapy eh? well...one, any place that i find which is comforting and soothing...a place that takes my mind off a little while from 'reality' or some sort is very therapeutic for me. secondly its family hey! nothing beats that therapy being with family. danny's place used to be where i would go for therapy...but sorry danny its not first on the list nemore =p and thanks for not coming to Ikea to have lunch with me. =pp. danny makes me laugh a lot. and he's one friend i can and will never forget. *awwwwwwwww* see danny. if ever u read this. haha.



and am really excited for another good friend of mine who has finally ended his training which i think was dreadful (i do, its so tiring!) but nevertheless training will always toughen up anyone. u feel strong now? i know u do. haha. and congratulations!!! graduation!!! make sure u get to be on Asian Food Channel. you must! presenting mr ray.






and was going through pictures...found those taken in spore last sept. went night cycling which was awesome and i think kim had it planned all the while and delene and i didnt really know about it but it was great anyhow! but my butt hurt so bad! (i tot my butt was very well insulated)









truly, can still pose even when blindfolded. miss u two girls!

hello weekend

its the cooking season. well since i got my new pan that adds on to the semangat. i love cooking. i dont really know how; the techniques and arts and all that but its always very enjoyable. cooking is next to shopping =)

so, decided to learn how to cook some new dishes. bought a pumpkin and chayote yesterday. the pumpkin looked cute. and am curious with the chayote. googled recipes; havent found a nice simple one to start with yet.

and today, anne (ex coursemate & lab neighbour) taught me how to prepare sambal. hehe. its good lesson hey, learning about cili galing (Puteri brand!). all this while only know how to eat and enjoy, so its time to learn how to prepare! not bad la for first time. oh and also tried cooking tempe, the fermented soybean cake. never had this in miri and they sell it a lot here. didnt turn out crispy as planned but bolehlah....

anne also kindly supplied enough movies for me to watch the entire week.

will be having some therapy at bro's place tomorrow. swimming & the osim chair.

having a delicious coffee now with the song Cruisin' blasting in my ears and thinking about the movie sex and the city that i just watched. i actually cried. cheh. ane girl.

have a nice weekend everyone! those going back to celebrate Raya have a safe trip. those on holiday enjoy your holiday. God bless always!!!

set small goals

ok i do have a serious problem of setting very high goals, then not being able to achieve it in the period of time i planned to and then get upset and unmotivated. there's nothing wrong with setting high goals but i do have very little attention time span...am not that discipline...a very good procastinator...arrrgghh it is irritating...so the lesson for today is: break down big goals to more realistic small goals. hmm. sounds common eh? and here i am learning how to set...small goals!

so today...or rather tonight...yes the sleeping has gone haywire again...

...is to get the methodology and results part done for the paper am writing.

2mrw is discussion and editing.

wed is...hand this paper and work on the other one...

thurs is...discussion and editing...

fri is... hand in 2nd paper and get back to hypertension...

wow...easier said than done...good plan...lets see the execution!

sleeping beauty

slept at 4am this morning thanks to ANTM cycle 9. i had to watch the whole cycle. used to take pride that am not hooked to any series; oh well that went out the window. i really really liked how the photoshoots turn out. art man. so art. the current cycle 11 makeover was crazy too! and they look amazing! and probably due to that i had sleeping problem. woke up at 11am...brunch...then went back to sleep at 3pm...till 8pm! mabuk tidur...thats sleeping problem rite. man. whole day gone.

and i was home alone for the weekend =( just stayed in the house, didnt even step out to go downstairs.

not so much of a productive weekend. aimless. still aimless.

september blues

feeling a little lost now. there is no exact definition of what i am suppose to do and i'm not motivated to do anything. i do feel that i'm left hanging trying to figure out what is going to happen next and that kinda sucks. or its just me not being more proactive or putting too much hope in what seems to be hopeless now or...oh where is all my enthusiasm...


what is happening...

hypertension

it is hyper-tension reading about hypertension. i'm only 50% done with cardiac physiology and the journals are flooding in already.

read read read read read.

content yang lebih real

thanks to adris this is a reply to your question. content yang lebih real...ish tunggu la! orang zibuk tau...berkemas kemas berpindah randah dan berkemas lagi. mana ada masa...bila ada inspirasi nanti la ok. anyway thanks...i know someone who has NBTD and will actually read this blog hehe thanks adris!!!

1stly...baby niece Anarose Rebad turned one last friday!!! blessed birthday dear! Rebad is her kelabit name and it actually means beautiful. owh she really is beautiful!

2ndly...i've officially been a bum for 3 months! and its...not fun at all!!! i appreciate the rest yes and the amazing time i have with reading...then again at times i feel useless?

and yes with the original intention of having this blog as my tell-tell board (everyone does, in a way eh?) after a long dilemma of WORKING or STUDYING i have decided to continue postgrad. well its a long story actually...

all this while i have always wanted to pursue post grad. no questions. never bothered about resume and all that cause i knew i WILL be continuing. then suddenly...after my final semester...i thought hey... work could be fun too! (shhhsshh....listen listen...) i didnt mind the thought of actually working first and decide abt studying later...i have a lot of people coming to me telling of how important getting an experience is first...but i think my field is different eh? so...went thru the resume process and jobstreet and screening newspaper for jobs and all that...and in the end decided to study. haha. sounds like an easy way out yeah? notty girl. but i am excited to be a student again. applying for Msc. in Nutrition. woohooo!

i was putting up in PJ section 14 for the whole month of august and i'm back in kajang now. good place and good housemates...God is awesome!

i am looking forward to what i'll be doing for the next...4 months before the application is confirmed. i'll let u know =)

and lastly...song of the week

turn your eyes upon Jesus
look full in His wonderful face
and the things of this world
will grow strangely dim
in the light of His glory and grace

keep your eyes upon Jesus
let nobody else take His place
so that hour by hour
you may know His power
till at last you have run the great race

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart
Proverbs 37:4

someone caught me singing

...the way you make me feel

you really turn me on

you knock me off my feet

my lonely days are gone...



am having lunch at a nearby cafe and wi-fi-ing here as well and they were playing michael jackson hits and i'm half eating and typing and swaying (swinging) my head and singing...

and the waiter actually came over..." so you like this song? i see u singing and swaying ur head"...



AIYO. SHY LA ME.