Just because everything's changing doesn't mean it's never been this way before

i love this song. Regina Spektor - The Call. From the soundtrack of Prince Caspian. so emo! good one tho.

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll cone back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

2 more weeks of work. few days of KL then i'll be back to miri, 12 june till 29 july. i cant really sort out my plans for the next coming weekends yet, i know i'm meeting up good ol' buddy Danny on the 31st of may then moving in to stay with cuz Mich for a while at her new place then figure out how to get to the airport on the 12th. my car, Bambi (hehe!) gonna get Charis to babysit her while i'm away so thats great. at least someone is taking care of her. i'm looking forward to taking a break- REST FOR REAL. back to comfort zone and all that. wont be too free for long in miri though, i suppose as a responsible daughter, *ehem* gotta make full use of myself to prepare for dad's wedding. yeap. daddy's wedding. 21 june. it's all well.

i'm still packing my stuff here back in kajang. its like a never ending thing. pack and repack and pack and repack. gosh. why did i ever accumulate so much stuff.

i thank God for the sharing in church this morning. it was a good message, spoke deeply to me and somehow so appropriate for my situation now. it was about guarding our heart from the verse Proverbs 4:23

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life."

there are a lot of things that we know, heard before and all that, like common things, but when heard again at some point of your life it really touches u, really bring significant meanings. brings you to another perspective in life. i dont really like those kind of moments, makes me feel stupid at times, oh well blame it on my pride; but these things change you. they make you realise things. they make you experience the real thing. they make you learn. sometimes when people around you go through tough times, all you can do is listen. but if you went through it yourself, you can actually say "hey, i went through that too. i know how it feels". and you really mean it. you really know how it felt.

haha. ramblings again. so difficult to express and write what is in my head. a lot of things. just too much.i wish i cud write proper. soon eh? write more!

gonna continue packing. drive back to PJ around 4.30pm. have dinner with aunt anne. prepare for work 2mrw. then sleep. all is well. all glory to Him alone.