warning sign - coldplay

A warning sign,
I missed the good part then I realized,
I started looking and the bubble burst.
I started looking for excuses.

Come on in,
I've gotta tell you what a state I'm in,
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones,
That I started looking for a warning sign.

When the truth is,
I miss you.
Yeah the truth is,
That I miss you so.

A warning sign,
You came back to haunt me and I realized,
That you were an island and I passed you by,
You were an island to discover.

Come on in,
I've gotta tell you what state I'm in,
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones,
That I started looking for a warning sign.

When the truth is,
I miss you.
Yeah the truth is,
That I miss you so.

And I'm tired,
I should not have let you go.

So I crawl back into your open arms.
Yes, I crawl back into your open arms.
And I crawl back into your open arms.
Yes, I crawl back into your open arms...

...when the mind and heart haunts; u can't see pass the light...

anyone else but you

emo. such a sucker for that! just watched Juno and i think its really, really good. such a simple film (yeah its indie) yet its so real. Ellen Page did deserve the 3 nominations she got: Academy Award, BAFTA & Golden Globe. the soundtracks are so good too. my personal favourite would definitely be the song Juno and Bleekey sang at the end " Anyone else but you" originally sang by molded peaches.

you're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
I want more fans, you want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

You are always trying to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't, you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

...i dont see what anyone can see, in anyone else but you...

c.s lewis song - brooke fraser

If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy,
I can only conclude that I was not made for here
If the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary,
then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm compared

Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
As I wait for hope to come for me

Am I lost or just less found?
On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?
is this a soul that stirs in me, is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?

Cos my comfort would prefer for me to be numb
And avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become

For we, we are not long here
Our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it
And I, I was made to live,
I was made to love,
I was made to know you
Hope is coming for me
Hope is coming for me
Hope is coming for me
Hope is coming for me

arithmetic - brooke fraser

I've been staring at the sky tonight
Marvelling and passing time
Wondering what to do with daylight
Until I can make you mine
You are the one I want, you are the one I want

I've been thinking of changing my mind
It never stays the same for long
But of all the things I know for sure
You're the only certain one
You are the one I want, you are the one I want

I've been counting up all my wrongs
One sorry for each star
See I'd apologise my way to you
If the heavens stretched that far
You are the one I want, you are the one I want

I won't find what I am looking for
If I only "see" by keeping score
'Cos I know now you are so much more than arithmetic

'Cos if I add, if I subtract
If I give it all, try to take some back
I've forgotten the freedom that comes from the fact
That you are the sum
So you are the one
I want

When the years are showing on my face
And my strongest days are gone
When my heart and flesh depart this place
From a life that sung your song

You'll still be the one I want
You'll still be the one I want
You'll still be the one I want
You'll still be the one I want

malaysian indie go Kokokaina!

owh yes please support malaysian indie! we have good ones right at our backyard hey! betul ker expression tu...what i want to say is that malaysian indie deserve our attention & support too. anyway thanks to charis...who introduced me to kokokaina. she is awesome! go listen to her at You tube. it is rather emo her songs...but the lyrics...oh man...she writes well!!! *sigh*
i love that emo-ness.

this is one from Kokokaina - someone you used to know

It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,
our love is lost, and we cant figure why
maybe it really is about time
that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
i hope that when you find someone new
that she would always be true to you
to love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories
then slowly you'd forget about me
then i would slowly be
a distant memory

*Soon i'll just be
that someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
for letting you go
time is not for wasting
i hope you'll find your intended
But i'm sorry
that your intended isn't me

it's not an easy thing
to shake off our history
i know that's what you want from me
but they will always stay with me

i admit i made mistakes
but darling with you it's just the same
if we stay there will be more to make
i dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair
to stay with something no longer there
but it doesn't mean i no longer care
but i'd feel like a burden you can't bear

unbreakable - fireflight

Where are the people that accused me?
The ones who beat me down and bruised me
They hide just out of sight
Can't face me in the light
They'll return but I'll be stronger

God, I want to dream again
Take me where I've never been
I want to go there
This time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me
Nothing can stop me

Sometimes it's hard to just keep going
But faith is moving without knowing
Can I trust what I can't see
To reach my destiny
I want to take control but I know better

Forget the fear it's just a crutch
That tries to hold you back
And turn your dreams to dust
All you need to do is just trust

Psalm 27
1 The LORD is my light and my salvation - whom shall i fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall i be afraid?
...
13 I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.

the reason why - rachel yamagata

I think about how it might have been
We'd spend out days travelin'
It's not that I don't understand you
It's not that I don't want to be with you
But you only wanted me
The way you wanted me

So, I will head out alone, hope for the best
And we hang our heads down
As we skip the goodbyes
And you can tell the world what you want them to hear
I've got nothing left to lose, my dear
So, I'm up for the little white lies
But you and I know the reason why
I'm gone, and you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there

I'll buy a magazine searching for your face
From coast to coast, or where ever I find my place
I'll track you on the radio, and
I'll sign your list in a different name
But as close as I get to you
It's not the same

So, I will head out alone, hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back
As say that we tried
And if one of us makes it big
We can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I know the reason why
I'm gone, you're still there
I'm gone, you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there

So, steal the show, and do your best
To cover the tracks that I have left
I wish you well and hope you find
Whatever you're looking for
The way I might've changed my mind,
But you only showed me the door

So, I will head out alone, hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back
And say that we tried
And if one of us makes it big
We can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I, you and I, you and I know the reason why.

accidently discovered. good one.

signal transduction

How little we know, how much to discover,

What chemical forces flow from lover to lover.

How little we understand what touches off that tingle,

That sudden explosion when two tingles intermingle.

Who cares to define what chemistry this is?

Who cares with your lips on mine how ignorant bliss is,

So long as you kiss me and the world around us shatters?

How little it matters how little we know?

a poem found in a biochemistry textbook on the introductory page of the chapter signal transduction

You'll be safe here

emo time! song from Rivermaya. emo emo emo!

nobody knows just why we're here
Could it be fate Or random circumstance
At the right place At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'Coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here

Remember how we laughed Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here

When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here

Just because everything's changing doesn't mean it's never been this way before

i love this song. Regina Spektor - The Call. From the soundtrack of Prince Caspian. so emo! good one tho.

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll cone back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

2 more weeks of work. few days of KL then i'll be back to miri, 12 june till 29 july. i cant really sort out my plans for the next coming weekends yet, i know i'm meeting up good ol' buddy Danny on the 31st of may then moving in to stay with cuz Mich for a while at her new place then figure out how to get to the airport on the 12th. my car, Bambi (hehe!) gonna get Charis to babysit her while i'm away so thats great. at least someone is taking care of her. i'm looking forward to taking a break- REST FOR REAL. back to comfort zone and all that. wont be too free for long in miri though, i suppose as a responsible daughter, *ehem* gotta make full use of myself to prepare for dad's wedding. yeap. daddy's wedding. 21 june. it's all well.

i'm still packing my stuff here back in kajang. its like a never ending thing. pack and repack and pack and repack. gosh. why did i ever accumulate so much stuff.

i thank God for the sharing in church this morning. it was a good message, spoke deeply to me and somehow so appropriate for my situation now. it was about guarding our heart from the verse Proverbs 4:23

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life."

there are a lot of things that we know, heard before and all that, like common things, but when heard again at some point of your life it really touches u, really bring significant meanings. brings you to another perspective in life. i dont really like those kind of moments, makes me feel stupid at times, oh well blame it on my pride; but these things change you. they make you realise things. they make you experience the real thing. they make you learn. sometimes when people around you go through tough times, all you can do is listen. but if you went through it yourself, you can actually say "hey, i went through that too. i know how it feels". and you really mean it. you really know how it felt.

haha. ramblings again. so difficult to express and write what is in my head. a lot of things. just too much.i wish i cud write proper. soon eh? write more!

gonna continue packing. drive back to PJ around 4.30pm. have dinner with aunt anne. prepare for work 2mrw. then sleep. all is well. all glory to Him alone.